hey

geez, I just can't think of a thing to say and right now all I can think about is my *new* guy. Yes folks, this chick has found someone special. Woo hoo. I am very happy and that scares me a little. I feel guilty because all my life I've been told that I should let God be my everything, and when I do, He will give me what I ask. And that I should be excited that I have Jesus in my life, as excited as when you find a person you could fall in love with, and I never do. I try so hard to be everything God wants but I fail him miserably every time. I feel guilty because I'm excited about my guy, and want to spend every waking minute with him, but I can't even pick up my Bible and read for 20 every day for God. It breaks my heart to see how shallow I am, and I don't want to be like that, I want to do what I was called by God to do, so that people can look at me and say yep, she belongs to God, no question about it.

Wow, this is not the direction I was going in, but hey, it was good to let that out. so I guess that's all for now.