So today I woke up at 5:30 and drove for 2 hours for the disaster relief training so I can go down to Louisiana as soon as possible. It was a long day.
I got to hear all about how many people their feeding units can feed in a day and what to bring with me. Then after lunch I learned how to shingle a roof. Not really but I have written directions and I have a card that says I'm qualified to help repair a roof in the event of a disaster.
I read today's Waiter Rant post and I feel so disheartened because up until a couple of years ago I was just concerned with my own little network of people and my secure little life. I forget that there are people who don't believe in God and actually hate God and Jesus. I never really sat down and thought about the world outside of Rhea County, but now the carefully built walls of my safe world are being torn down chunks at a time by all the heartbreak, disaster, betrayal and general hatred that is being thrown at me. I was so thrilled to finally know that God's plans for me were being revealed, and I was on such a high at the thought of finally getting to do something for Him in His name and for His glory that I thought how could anything go wrong? Now Satan's trying to rip my heart out with all this sadness because he knows I'm in God's hands and he can't get to me. Satan's lies of my unworthiness and uselessness are horrible and heartbreaking. I can feel my heart twisting in my chest with the struggle that's going on inside.
Wow, I feel tons better now. This is not the direction I was going but I guess God had other plans.
"11) For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. 12) Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. 13) And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart. 14) I will be found by you, says the Lord, and I will bring you back from your captivity..."
Jeremiah 29:11-14
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