So today I find out that the one guy I had so much in common with but haven't seen since September is getting married. Honestly, I got all swimmy headed and thought I was gonna pass out. I don't understand how you can spend 4 years with someone sharing more than is safe to mention intimate information and then totally drop them without so much as a "it was nice being your friend but I have new friends now". I feel like my heart has been ripped out with a rusty spiked spear and then paraded around on front street all over again. We had the discussion of "you don't have to call me anymore because I know you don't have time for me" a while back and I thought I had put the whole ugly thing behind me but now it's flooded back into my life with an overwhelming wave and all I want to do is wallow in self pity.
I do realize that I'm not the only one that has gone through this, and I won't be the last, but when it actually happens and it's your first real heartbreak, you feel like you are the only person on earth that could be feeling this crappy. Cue the violins with the sad melodramatic music. Cue the center spotlight with me alone sitting in a black chair on an empty stage. Or...I'll make it a red chair and that will be the hint that it won't be this way forever. I hope.
To Be Continued...
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One day, you will find the man of your dreams. He will only have eyes for you, and you will be happy. This guy that has ripped your heart apart will see one day that he has ruined the one good thing in his life, and it will be too late, because you will have moved on from this, with your head held high, and a lesson learned. It will hurt for a time, but it will heal. You are loved, and God has a man for you..he just hasn't made it to your door step yet.
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