I don't know........

Two important things happened tonight. First,we performed the dress rehearsal to an audience of about thirty. The first act went relatively smoothly, no major problems except the songs were so slow I swear I thought I saw someone slipping into a coma, and I'm thinking alright we're gonna be done in less than 4 hours. Then the second act happened. You would think that a director who is also in the play would know what she's doing. Especially one who made professional theater her career. Can I just say that if I was doing this show with her for the first time, I would never do theater again in my life. She got on stage and we were up there right where we were supposed to be, we finished our pretty dandelion song and then everything went to hell. Seriously. She skipped like three scenes and went straight to the end of the show, and we were standing there with nowhere to go because for the scene she was doing, we're not on stage. So we stood there going what are we supposed to do and, geez I don't even know what happened, but we were on stage looking like total idiots. I left the stage when it was over and went straight to the dressing room, changed my clothes, and sat there because I literally felt sick to my stomach. I think I won't even go to work tomorrow. hehe.
While everyone was changing she came in and started saying "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it'll be fixed tomorrow" and then, and this is the best part, she fainted . Yes folks, the woman fainted. I just stood there. I didn't even try to help her up. I knew she was faking it. My sister knew she was faking it. Because if she had really fainted she would have hit her head on the chair that was sitting there, but she caught herself before she hit, and she recovered right away. Now, I've never fainted nor seen anyone faint, but I figure if you did, then it would take you a while to recover from it since your body has to readjust to the shock of whatever made you faint in the first place. So that happened first.

Second, and sorry I know this is probably longer than you care to read, but I have to tell this.

I get in my car where my phone is and I have a message waiting for me. Hmmm, who could be calling since my sister is at the theater with me? It would be the guy that broke my heart, calling to say that he was "looking through some of his things" and "remembering old times" and was sorry he dropped me like he did but he doesn't want to apologized to my voice mail so he would call later. And then he said "pancakes" which is an inside joke. What do I do now? Should I just try to go back and be friends again or should I say sorry you had your chance. We were so close and shared so much, and then he just vanished, and now this. I want to believe that he did it because of the remorse just eating at his insides, but I have a gnawing feeling that his mother had something to do with it. See, I had called her to ask if she would make cookies for the play, and said "you know he doesn't talk to me anymore" and she made the excuse of well he's in love and you don't think much about your friends when your in love. That is the biggest bunch of dookie I've heard in a while. But anyway, I think she's said something to him, and that makes me kinda angry that it takes her prompting him for me to get an apology out of him. He really kinda got me with the whole pancakes line because it was like yeah say a joke and then everything will be alright, but it's not. waaahhaaaa I don't know what to do!
*sniff*